Saturday, February 28, 2009

Straight Up Annoyed


I have been in one mood lately. And I haven't been able to put my finger on what kind of mood I've been in.

Stressed? Yes...but that's not all it.

Depressed? Somewhat...but I have my reasons to. Like, Mom and Dad's divorce final trial being Wednesday.

Exhausted? Of course. That's every week.

Overworked? Duh.

Then, while I was taking a shower it hit me: I am straight up annoyed.

And I mean, I am annoyed at the smallest things.

I am annoyed that my legs are super dry and itchy.
I am annoyed that Josh got to go out and have fun last night.
I am annoyed that I am working and cleaning today by myself.
I am annoyed that my mom is drepressed and negative about everything.
I am annoyed that I haven't had a full weekend with Josh since...Geez, I don't know since when.
I GET annoyed when mom says, "You just don't understand. You never will." Whatev.
I am annoyed that my hair is too long.
I am annoyed that I have a zit that REFUSES to go away.
I am annoyed at every little sarcasim joke that is thrown my way. Normally I can diss it out but lately I have not been in the mood.
I am annoyed that the IRS is on my case.
I am annoyed that Josie still craps on the guest bedroom bed.

And I could go on. But I'll stop. For right now, those are just things I've encountered today. Those things have started out little, turned into frustration, then to annoyance.

The plus is that this annoyance to everything has led to accomplish many tasks in 1 day! Like, donating 20 books to the library (Dead Serious), donating 4 boxes of clothes to the thrift store, hauling out 3 bags of trash (I have 3 more bags in the basement), Cleaning and Packing my dresser and chest drawers, cleaning the bathroom, doing laundry and right now that's it. In about an hour I'm going to tackle my closet--my big final project.

So I guess there is an upside to every downside.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Twosies to relieve my Woozies.

Hahah gay but funny.

two things you love
1. reading
2. napping

two things you hate
1. interruptions
2. hot sleepness nights

two best friends
1. Josh
2. Steena/Mer/Heat. It's a toss up.

two best memories
1. Seeing Josh for the first time after being in South American for 3 weeks
2. Winthrop

two regrets
1. making rash decisions
2. procrastinating

two favorite music artists
1. sister hazel
2. brad paisley

two good songs
1. this kind of live (acoustic)
2. amazing grace

two good movies
1. Madea movies
2. Can't Buy Me Love

two good actor/actresses
1. Reese Witherspoon
2. Brad Pitt (typical I know)

two things you watch on tv
1. Scrubs
2. Greys/Private Practice

two good books
1. Any book by Jen Lancaster
2. Any book by Emily Giffen

two things in your room
1. 10 pairs of Danskos
2. jewelry

two questions you want answered
1. Am I really going to pay the government that much?
2. Will my parents ever agree?

two things that could be better
1. The Weather
2. the economy

two things you wish you could do
1. Better my cello skills
2. Travel freely

two good things about summer
1. no school
2. lazy days

two bad things about summer
1. hottness
2. bordem

two things other people should know about you
1. I stress too easily
2. I'm a Google Addict

two things you are constantly told
1. You stress too much.
2. You're burps are disgusting.

two things you look forward to
1. Moving
2. Paying off student loans

two current thoughts
1. Can I pack all of this in 1 weekend?
2. Did I screw up?

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Will I Ever Ben Caught Up?

My feet have hit the ground this week and I have not stopped running. It has been nonstop.

First of all, I'm moving out in less than 2 weeks. This is way sooner than what I had originally planned. So it's been a whirlwind around here. Cleaning and packing. More cleaning. This weekend will entail more packing. While I'm super excited, it has been really overwhelming.

Secondly, I just coughed up $400 at the eye doctor for new contacts, glasses, and an eye exam. Joy right? The plus is that I got some neato new classes and because of my insurance I saved over $300. So I keep telling myself that's a positive.

Next, my loans for school will not be here till May because we had to move back our start date for the classes which totally bites because I was ready to start ASAP. So this is just more dwindling. It's probably a good thing the start date got pushed back because this will give me more time to settle into the apartment.

Also, I am being audited by the IRS. My fault and I'm paying for it. WONDERFUL.

I just keep telling myself, "Calm down. It will be ok. You will pull through this." I am trying to put some money aside in savings up front so I'm not freaking out in a few weeks about moving. I've been trying to live by my "10-10-80." 10% is tithing, 10% savings, 80% live off of. Man that is hard. I know money shouldn't consume my life but it can be challenging when that's what you depend on.

I had this stressed look on my face today. Robin (my mentor) said, "What's wrong hunny? You look stressed." And I said, "I am not ready financially for all of this." She replied, "Girl, you never will be."

And I'm starting to believe she's right. There is always something that's going to come up. More student loans, debt, payments, this, that, the IRS. Geez. But I look back at when I was in college. I was living off $300-400 a month. That was ROUGH. My one pay check now would equal my money for 4 months in college. I know I should be grateful that I have a job and I can pay my bills. It just gets really overwhelming sometimes for me. But does it ever stop being overwhelming?

Then I start thinking about the future. Josh hates it when I do this. But I start to think-Ok. If I already have this "x" amount of money in student loans and he has this "x" amount this would be put at "xxxx" amount of debt when we get married. Then I just want to fall over and die.

On another note, there's a $200 comforter set I want from Bed, Bath, and Beyond. Geezzz I want it so badly. Can I budget it?? It's a really good deal. Especially with a coupon.

do you ever feel really overwhelmed with money? do you have any advice????

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Couples Survey

Ok I know I should do a real blog. But I have been exhausted and just cleaned out my "corner" of the basement. I will post and blog about that later. But for now, here's this. (I'm doing it without Josh because he would think this is totally dumb)

What are your middle names?
Steven and Pilar

How long have you been together?
2 yrs May 25!

How old are each of you?
Both 24. I'm 2 weeks older.

How long did you know each other before you started dating?
None. Our first date was the first night we met and we've been together since. Well, I take that back. We talked on the phone for about a month or so before our first date.

Who asked who out?
Josh asked Jess out. Kinda.

How long did it take to get serious?
It took me longer to get more serious than Josh. Josh was ready for a bigger commitment than I was. But after moving back home and leaving Josh, I was ready.

Are you from the same home town?
No

Whose siblings do you see the most?
Probably Joshs since we never know when my brother is going to grace us with his presence. But I consider Holly and India sisters so we see them a lot on the weekends too.

Do you have any children together?
Big negative.

What about pets?
Josie Bella, our Chorkie!

Did you go to the same school?
Nope

Who is the most sensitive?
Me of course. Josh won't admit it, but I've seen that sensitive side before. Such a turn-on (dead serious).

Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Firehouse, Outback, Bojangles. Our new obession is PF Changs and Jason's Deli. Lately we've been at Gators, but against our will.

Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Jacksonville, FL

Who has the worst temper?
Josh. Lord help us. When he gets caught up in something and stressed it takes it to the way extreme, which turns in to pouty moods.

Who does the cooking?
We both do.

Who is more social?
Used to be me but we're pretty even now. Josh has came out more.

Who is the neat freak?
Josh

Who is the most stubborn?
we are both extremely stubborn.

Who hogs the bed?
Josh. and Josie. There's no hope with both of them in the bed together.

Who wakes up earlier?
Me. Those 5:30 AM wake up calls during the week stick with me on the weekends most of the time.

Where was your first date?
T-Bonz on the River in Gastonia. Then Sammy's Pub till 2 AM. Then back to the parking lot for convo til 3 AM.

Who has the bigger family?
Josh has a bigger immediate family, I have a larger extended family.

How do you spend the holidays?
traveling and I hate it. We have 2 Thanksgivings, and 3 Christmases.

Do you get flowers often?
No but when he does give flowers he gives big time (i.e. my BEAUTIFUL orchids for Valentine's Day delivered to school)

Who eats more?
Josh

Who sings better?
I sing all the time, don't know if Josh cares for it. But I know Josh has a voice inside of him that he is just WAITING to let out.

Who does the laundry?
We do our own since we live in seperate places. But Josh does better at keeping up wih his.

Who’s better with the computer?
Josh

Who drives when you are together?
Depends. If we're in SPTBG, I drive. If we're in Gastonia, Josh drives.

Who picks where you go to dinner?
It's a collective decision. We decide together...it's an hour process sometimes.

Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
Probably me just to end the fight and be done with it. And just to drop whatever the problem is.

Who eats more sweets?
Me...definitely. That has not been a big quality Josh admires in me.

Who cries more?
Me

Monday, February 16, 2009

1. Where is your cell phone? jacket
2. Your significant other? Joshie
3. Your hair? dry
4. Your mother? crazy
5. Your father? douche
6. Your favorite thing? reading
7. Your dream last night? nothing
8. Your favorite drink? diet coke
9. Your dream/goal? live
10. What room you are in? classroom
11. Your hobby? reading
12. Your fear? failure
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? moved
14. Where were you last night? Candice's
15. Muffins? love
17. Wish list item? ring
18. Where you grew up? SC
19. Last thing you did? teach
20. What are you wearing? skirt
21. Your TV? off
22. Your pets? hyper
23. Friends? different
24. Your life? good
25. Your mood? tired
26. Missing someone? yes
27. Car? Honda
28. Something you're not wearing? glasses
29. Your favorite store? Gap Outlet (there's a difference)
30. Your favorite color? black
33. When is the last time you laughed? today
34. Last time you cried? Tuesday
35. Who will resend this? none
36. One place that I go to over and over? bed :)
37. One person who emails me regularly? Facebook
38. My favorite place to eat? Pizza Inn
39. Why you participated in this survey? bored
40. What are you doing tonight? planning

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

It's official

I'm going to my grave early.

Between my job and the stress it brings...

to my insane family that makes me twitch...

to my boyfriend who is so stubborn it's almost impossible to NOT love him (if you know what I mean)...

I'm going to lose it.

I swear I have found 2 new gray hairs on my head. And Lisa just keeps on pulling them out. Maybe that's why they're multiplying and I keep finding more.

It it wasn't for

the laughs we have at work after school and faculty meetings...

to the "wholesome" love and talks from my family...

to the same understanding and love from my boyfriend...

I would be up at the Mental Health Department filling out an application.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Can You Hear Me??

What the mess. I've lost my voice. I thought I was coming down with strep because 4 of my students have had strep in the last 2 weeks. BOOO. But I was a good little girl and had our school nurse check me out. (Nurse Beth rocks by the way because she keeps a stash of meds her cabinet for us) She said it didn't look like strep but to rest my voice. Ha. Yeah right. All I've done today was talk, and then try to talk even louder so my students could hear me. Awful. Insane.

On another note, I'm hoping to move out with Steena soon. Hopefully by the spring. Don't get me wrong. I love my mom and we've had some good times but it's time for me to scoot along. Steena and I are looking at apartments to see what we can find. Keep your fingers crossed!

I am excited about this weekend and it's not because it's Valentine's Day but because we're going to the beach!!! YEAH!! I'm praying that I will have overcome whatever I'm fighting by then.

Oh and I got this e-mail from Allie B in India. It totally made me laugh the other morning when I got it. :)

Subject: PYKA IS IN INDIA.
Body: So the other day, I thought I heard a cat screaming...HELLOOOO!!! like Pyka used to do when you didn't feed her in the mornings. Well, I just saw the devil of a cat and heard it screaming. Cats are really rare here, so it's odd that the one talking cat is in our neighborhood. Anyways, if you could send a gun over that would be great. Have a great day at school.

Allie, just know that God has sent you that Pyka sound a like cat for you to remember our great times together and all the memories you and Pyka shared. P.S. The gun is on the way.

I'm just totally rambling. I think I'm going to go find something to eat. If I can't talk, the least I can do is eat, right?